Recovery From Undue Influence & Coercive Control
God is love and He loves you. Not all humans are like God in that way, and unfortunately there is much masquarading as religion that is coercive undue influence where people or a group of people want to use you for their gain.
An introduction to groups that use coercive control (it's okay they use the word "cult." Your group may not be a "cult" per se, but there could be undue influence about which you can educate yourself: